“It is time for me to go away from from this medium and make something that scares the shit out me and challenges me in new ways.”
~ Gayla Trail

Sometimes I want to do it all. Sometimes I feel bad about not being able to do it all. The realm of the internet can make one do funny things, I think.

That’s what got me thinking today, and it’s always good to be aware that this is not a competition to make it to the top, not a competition to be the most famous, the one who gets the most hits on their Statcounter, etc. It’s just throwing yourself out there and having fun. No mean feat, considering I’m a very competitive person by nature — I do not want to participate in things that I don’t have a chance of winning, like competitive sports, for example. It’s crazy, I know. But for the past few months I’ve been reeling myself in and giving myself ittle slaps accross the face, and telling myself to loosen up and think of the big picture.

I need to stop being so competitive and just stick my nose on the grindstone, where it belongs.

My daily drawing project goes on, and because I don’t do drawing on a whim, I’m going to do this exercise (I actually cut up the pieces and stuck it in a jar, and pull out one everyday. Yes, I need someone to tell me what to do.)

And I’m sad that this will be no more.